The modeling trade might seem like it’s all glitz, glam, and flashing lights, however it may be merciless generally. And in line with South Sudanese supermodel Ajak Deng, it’s simply that.
Ajak lately took to Instagram sharing a heartbreaking video about residing the life as a mannequin most individuals need, however expressing that there’s a darkish aspect. “You don’t know the way lonely it’s on the high,” Ajak says within the video. She is visibly emotional, crying and, ultimately, yelling into the cellphone blasting the company she works with.
“The life that everyone at all times f**king desires, proper? You wanna be a f**king mannequin, you wanna be this, you wanna be a profitable one, however the factor is, you don’t know the way lonely it’s on the high. And never solely that, the those who work with you might be consistently telling you you must be a greater particular person. And that you simply’re a horrible particular person. Consistently. Each day. I’m sick and drained. I’m finished. If I do commit suicide, know that I commit suicide due to you mom**kers. I’m finished with this s**t. I’m finished. I can’t do it.”
The supermodel has walked in runway reveals for the New York, London and Milan Style Weeks. She’s additionally been featured in worldwide style campaigns however has at all times been vocal about what it’s like being Black within the contentious trade. Ajek was part of a BET collection final 12 months the place she opened up about her experiences as a Sudanese mannequin.
Ajak has since eliminated the video and thanked her social group for his or her issues however assured everybody that she is certainly feeling OK. Could is psychological well being consciousness month, so let’s hold Ajak in our prayers.